April 7, 2009


I want to be one of those people that can control their emotions. I want to let things roll off my sleeve like it's no big thing. I want to be rational.

But alas...I am not.

I am the complete polar opposite. I get my feelings hurt WAY too easy. If I am having a rough day, you can see it all over me. I have a hard time not getting consumed by the negative.

But I am trying.

I am trying to find peace with everything. I am trying to be a better person. I am trying to find meaning in everything that happens, everything that is said, everything that comes across my path. I am trying to find my place. I am trying to reign in my emotions and not let them guide me.

I love my life, and I am so very blessed. I have a wonderful husband, two beautiful children, family and friends that love me. I have a job. I am capable. I am thankful for everything that we have in our lives.

But sometimes...those other moments get a little too heavy. But tomorrow is a new day and full of new possibilities.

Sorry...I really don't mean to be so negative..I'm working on that too. I just don't quite know how to bottle it up and hide it.