November 19, 2009

Busy Girl

Thru it all, I have stayed extremely busy. Head over to the MaddiePie Blog and check out some of my latest sessions.

MaddiePie Candles are also back. Each year around the holidays I make candles. So many different scents this year! They are officially ready so send me an email if you are interested!

As of this coming Monday I will also be an Avon Representative. Avon has really changed over the years and have greatly improved their products. It is the only makeup I wear now...and if you know how picky I am about my makeup, then you know that is saying alot.

I guess I figure, if I stay super busy I won't really have time to wallow in my poor pitiful me mentality. Then again, if it all goes well...maybe eventually I can not work full time and do these things that I enjoy!

November 17, 2009

Going Dark

I am trying really hard to keep my head above water...and just keep swimming. But man some days it is tough. So I apologize that I haven't blogged too much lately. It's really tough to stay positive and I am a firm believer that no one wants to hear me whining about how rough things are right now.

In fact, I was even told last week that no one really likes to hear me whine. So the best I can do right now is just stay a little quiet and go a little dark. At least on the bad days...

Holidays are here and I am no where close to being ready. In laws are coming this weekend for Thanksgiving, lots to do to get things in order. Then the mad rush for Christmas begins. Everything is going to be homemade this year. Now to just figure out what to get the hooligans.

Oh!! The Boy turns 13 Thursday. That should be interesting.

November 4, 2009

The Boy

The Boy is trying out for basketball today and started back up with the select soccer team...AND he has regional tryouts for band next weekend. Busy? yeah, maybe just a little.

His grades are slipping because he extremely lazy when it comes to his do you motivate someone?

The greatest thing through all of this though (The Man not working) is that their relationship has grown considerably. The Boy is really starting to open up and talk and ask questions.

Some questions I would rather not know about...but I guess you can't be picky.

He really is struggling right now, trying to find out who he is and how he fits into the puzzle. He got super upset the other day because he is not, tall, strong, athletic, and handsome. While he is in my eyes, I do understand that compared to the other boys he is surrounded by, he does not measure up physically. We had a long conversation about how he needs to learn to be comfortable in his own skin and know that he is an amazing person and THAT is what really matters. I know that it isn't important right now, but in the long run, he has to be ok with who he is in spite of his physical appearance.

Of course, as I tell him all of this, I also acknowledge that I wasn't comfortable in my own skin until just a few years ago. I hope he finds his way LONG before I did.

So Blessed

I was wrapping up a session and getting it posted on the MaddiePie blog and was a little overwhelmed by how very blessed I am. I have some of the best people sprinkled throughout my life. Some of these people love me for me and just knowing that makes it all worthwhile.

Our lives have been extremely chaotic over last few months and some days it really does feel like the weight of the world is crashing down around me. But it is in these moments, that I know that I will rise above all the madness and continue on trudging through. It is in these moments that I know that I have a great support system and if nothing else they will lift me up and not allow us sink.