Thoughts

If you haven't noticed by now...I have LOTS of thoughts going on in my head, it's crazy in here. It's all very random and if you are a friend on my facebook you will see that there is a constant musical soundtrack going on in there...It's really funny when everyone "sings" along with your status - LOVE IT!

But recently I have a lot of thoughts about my photography. I want to make that leap but financially we are not in a position where I can just jump in with both feet. I finally got the camera and lenses that I needed, now I just need to get the studio created...but of course, that takes money and time. Both of which I currently am NOT in excess of.

It's kinda funny because when I think about it...it really isn't going to take that much money. But it's money nonetheless. So I have decided to just make a list of the things I need and slowly start checking them off. I am putting that list here, because it helps me be accountable.

So here we go. Things I need to create the indoor studio:


- curtains to block of the room to the upstairs
- floatable hardwood floor
- background stand
- seamless paper rolls - white, black, and gray
- light kit
- futon type mattress
- white linens
- fuzzy blankets
- funky colorful chairs..just one or two
- curtains for the windows (white sheer type)


OK, so that is what I need to get started...and then of course some fun props, but those can wait. The 1st half of the list are the essentials to get started, the 2nd 1/2 of the list are the things that needed to be added VERY soon.


As I think thru these things I have to stop and wonder, ok so what type of photography am I going to do in the studio. I don't want to do families up there because I think families in a studio are too stuffy and doesn't capture the essence of the family. I visualize some kids photography and perhaps some boudoir sessions. I have so many ideas floating around in my head and really want to get them out and materialized into some pictures.


I have also been thinking alot about my photography in general. I think I have spent so much time blog stalking other photographers and trying to recreate their techniques that I have lost the style that I want to have. I have gone into the last couple of sessions and have been so preoccupied with trying to get the images that I have seen on other blogs that it has become too stressful. I think I need to take a few steps back and re-evaluate what I want my images to accomplish. How I want to portray my photography style.

I have a family shoot coming up this week and I am absolutely terrified because I feel as though I have no idea what to do, how to communicate with them, how to make them feel comfortable. I need to step back and just trust in myself and know that I can do it.

See...told you it was crazy inside this head of mine.